Once again there is a gap in posts. Some of that can be chalked up to life, some of it has to do with me, and some of it boils down to not knowing what to write. As I sat in front of the blank landscape of my computer screen I struggled. I struggled to … [Read more…]


Things happen in life that can be difficult to handle. Something breaks, well laid plans fall apart, major repairs on a car, toxic people impact our lives, relationships dissolve, and sometimes the story ends for someone you know. Often when being told about these things I hear a sense of being out of control. At … [Read more…]

Taking Control

There’s this point after everything has fallen apart. This point where we have surrendered control of our very lives. Others make all our decisions for us. We’re told what to do, where to go, when to do this or that, take this, get up, come with me, tell him or her what you’re thinking, if … [Read more…]

New Beginnings

Over the last few days I’ve had a lot going on. At times it’s felt very overwhelming and like I’m barely keeping my head above water. Even with all of this happening I’ve had to sit back and acknowledge the significance of it all. On one side I’m completing the process of closing an old … [Read more…]


Lately I’ve had a lot playing on my mind about how far I’ve come in my recovery and some of the things that have made that journey a little easier. Several people have talked to me about how hard it is, how sometimes even getting started seems impossible, they don’t know where to start, or … [Read more…]

Looking Back

Sometimes we stop what we’re doing and we look back to where we were. As we contemplate where we are in our lives and the path we chose to get here there is a tidal wave of emotions. Those emotions aren’t always positive; but they should be. Allow me to be a little overly vague … [Read more…]

Standing at a Cross Road

At one point or another we all hit a cross road in life where we have to make a decision. This is true for anyone, with or without some hardship that they’re trying to recovery from. For me the decision to try and walk out of my own darkness towards the hope of recovery came … [Read more…]